Wasting Water In The Shower

 i spend too much time wasting water in the shower 

like a flower drowning under the water 

i am the tiger lily growing along the side of your street that doesn't bloom until late may and is scorched by july

i don't want someone who is going to decide one day that i am not enough anymore

i am used to watching men throw women aside when they get bored

i will not fall into that category of women when i am old

i will drown to death before i do

i will not be scorched or shut up by men deciding their voices have not been told

when all we have been doing is listening to them speak

i am used to hearing men say divorce should not be an option 

but cheating can be

i listened to stories of my grandmother being beat by her first husband

as my grandfather now helps her make the bed every morning 

so i know the opinions of these liars are not true

it is not too feminist to want someone who will stay loyal

i will not make an excuse for the women who did not stay loyal

i want a type of love that needs no one else

i want a type of love where neither one of us will need a car because we will never be leaving each other or our home

so instead i will drown in my opinions while continuing to waste water in the shower.